I am notorious for holding grudges, us Italians are known for it! I hate doing it, but I can't seem to stop. I know it is not healthy for the problem to fester and become more than it was in the first place, but I hate confrontation and I just feel it is easier to let it go and hold my silly little grudge! Now a shrink would say that even though it sucks, you need to face the trouble and move on.... Maybe that's why I don't go to a shrink! I can self diagnosis myself. I hate to hurt feelings and I hate to think that something I said would make someone upset! I am a coward, plain and simple, but I am a self realizing coward! I know what my problems are, I just choose not to do anything about them. If there was a way for me to bypass the issue and move on, that would be great, but conflict mgmt was never my strong subject. I think that if I were to start over again, I mean all over, I would not change to much, some things, but my ability to resolve my own inner torment would be one thing I would change! Just a thought and something more to get off my chest.....
-S
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