Sometimes

Every once in a while, I get very depressed. I am not really sure why, I just do. It comes on and it lasts for a few days and then it vanishes like a puff of smoke. Sometimes there are reason for it, and sometimes there is not. This bout of depression has a reason, that is to long to go into, but I am not sure if it is all that valid. I help others for the shear please of doing it, not for the reward, or any gratitude that might follow, but in certin circumstances, it is nice to be included, to be thought of, even if I would not have been able to accept. This situation was not my fault, but my depression is. I have the ability to resolve it, but in doing so would make an old woman very upset. She suffers from anexity and high blood pressure and I would be a selfish prick to bring this on her! So I will let it go, and be miserable for a few more days and get over it in due course. I just needed an avenue to express my displeasure. I am still in limbo from alot of other trials, but life is a journey, and without bumps and potholes, it would be a very boring ride indeed!