Merry Christmas

Sometimes Christmas aint pretty! That being said, we have to grit our teeth and trudge along with it! You make do with what you have and try your best stay happy! Christmas is not about self pleasure, it is about the happiness of others!

Holding grudges

I am notorious for holding grudges, us Italians are known for it! I hate doing it, but I can't seem to stop. I know it is not healthy for the problem to fester and become more than it was in the first place, but I hate confrontation and I just feel it is easier to let it go and hold my silly little grudge! Now a shrink would say that even though it sucks, you need to face the trouble and move on.... Maybe that's why I don't go to a shrink! I can self diagnosis myself. I hate to hurt feelings and I hate to think that something I said would make someone upset! I am a coward, plain and simple, but I am a self realizing coward! I know what my problems are, I just choose not to do anything about them. If there was a way for me to bypass the issue and move on, that would be great, but conflict mgmt was never my strong subject. I think that if I were to start over again, I mean all over, I would not change to much, some things, but my ability to resolve my own inner torment would be one thing I would change! Just a thought and something more to get off my chest.....

-S

I think

There are times that I think that I am a smarter than I really am! I am not a smart man by any stretch of the imagination, but I do have common sense when it comes to certain issues! There are alot of things that make me so angry that I wanna spit, but there are other situations that I just have to laugh at! I was at Wal-Mart today, and if you are an ardent reader of this blog, you know the love I have for that lair of HELL! I was looking for socks, nice cheap ankle socks. I did not find what I was looking for, but I did find an action figure so the trip as not in vein! I usually park near the garden section because it is less crowded and there is never a line in that section, so I am in and out in a very short span of time! I gathered up my items and I headed for the cashier. I get there and there is a VERY pregnant woman that had a cart full of groceries. I don't mean halfway full, I mean all the way to the top full. She unloads the cart on the small counter in the garden center and is annoyed that all her shit does not fit. She then proceeds to pull out a giant chain of WIC checks to pay for all her goodies. So each check is tendered and her order is bagged by the same slow lady that was ringing her up. I pay for my item and 45 minutes later I am out of the garden section and on the way to my car to head back to the sane relm of my home! I them notice that the very pregnant WIC check queen is driving a very new very shiny Jaguar! WTF really???? She is getting pregnant, on goverment assistance, and she is driving around in a car that I would kill for? I am stunned.... That is all I have to say! I just don't get it at all. I am not the smartest guy on the planet, but I think that this deserves some looking into if U ask me! Just an innocent observation from yours truly!

Priceless!

So.................

I have had some compalints that my blog is a bit down and sad! I don't mean it to be, but sometimes that is life! I am not as sad and pathetic as this makes me out to be! I usually only write here when there is something wrg that I can't seem to articulate into actual words! I am usually happy, I am light hearted and try to look for the best in most situations, but I cannot always do that! So this was a short blurb about why I am cranky sometimes, and that I am not the pre suscidial mad man most of you think I am!

-S

Why???

I am torn alot of the time. I have a clear idea of what I wanna do in my head, but most of the time it does not all work out as planned. I try to keep my life simple, but it always get complicated in the end. I am forced to go along with things I have no intrest in, and I am pulled and tugged at by people I should love, but there very existance drives me to the point of madness. I have no one to confide in, and I have no real outlet for my frustration. My blog is a good example. I try to write about what I am feeling, like an online diary, but I am torn there too! I don't want to fill this whole page with negitive thougts, but then we are back to the begining again.... Where do I vent? Who do I turn to? The is no simple answer to this. I could go to a shrink, spill my guts for 150.00 an hour, and that would solve what? The trouble for that day, week, month? How long would I be able to hold it in again. I feel like I am on the verge of a very deep and violent outburst. I have been in control for to long! I don't want to contain it anymore! I am tired of always keeping it together. I am at the end of a very long rope, and if I don't fall off it, I will certinly hang myself with it! I am not sure where to go with this, but I will say this. This is not a threat of violence against anyone, or threats to my own personal safety. It is the plea of a desprate man for salvation. All I wanna know is that there is light at the end of this verly long dark tunnel.

-S

Sometimes

Every once in a while, I get very depressed. I am not really sure why, I just do. It comes on and it lasts for a few days and then it vanishes like a puff of smoke. Sometimes there are reason for it, and sometimes there is not. This bout of depression has a reason, that is to long to go into, but I am not sure if it is all that valid. I help others for the shear please of doing it, not for the reward, or any gratitude that might follow, but in certin circumstances, it is nice to be included, to be thought of, even if I would not have been able to accept. This situation was not my fault, but my depression is. I have the ability to resolve it, but in doing so would make an old woman very upset. She suffers from anexity and high blood pressure and I would be a selfish prick to bring this on her! So I will let it go, and be miserable for a few more days and get over it in due course. I just needed an avenue to express my displeasure. I am still in limbo from alot of other trials, but life is a journey, and without bumps and potholes, it would be a very boring ride indeed!

Small video almost done.

I am making a small video about the death of Michael Jackson.....It is tasteless and vulger, but I find it funny! I am going to post one frame from the video, just as a taste! Keep reading for further details!

-Stephen

FUCK YOU Wal-Mart

FUCK Wal-Mart....... That is the end of that. I went and bought a game from them the other day. It was a computer game that I have been dying to get for a long time. I paid almost $60 for this friggin thing, get it home, pop it in the DVD drive and start the install. My computer meets the requirments for the game to operate, but when I get it to start, the fuckin thing is slower then a fat chick at an all you can eat pizza buffet. I figure fine, let me take it back, let them know there was a problem, and let me swap it out for something better....... I get to the over crowded, redneck filled child screaming Walmart and stand in the 45 mile long customer service line, only to be told that there was a policy that you can only swap a defictive game for the same fuckin thing. Being sly I said sure, I would get a new game and go to another store with the Un opened game and get a refund..... NO SUCH LUCK. the fat broad takes her pen and opens the new game right there at the desk to keep me from doing just that. I polietly explained again, VERY SLOWLY that the game was not working because of system requirments, and that a new game would be pointless. Her brilliant answer? "Looks like you gonna haffa sell it on E-bay" WTF? E-bay..... What amazing customer service I got from this group of under paid, un educated pack of drooling monkeys. I hate Sam Walton, I hate Wal-Mart and I hate the fact that I am stuck with a $60 coaster. FUCK YOU WAL-MART

45 life lessons

I was reading a very good blog that I follow, and I came across this, it was profound. The blog was www.breaktheillusion.com. I would urge you to read more of his blog, it is full of helpfull life lessons. Here is the list of 45 life lessons we all can learn from!

Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.

When in doubt, just take the next small step.

Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

Pay off your credit cards every month.

You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Cry with someone. It’s more healing than crying alone.

It’s OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

Make peace with your past so it won’t screw up the present.

It’s OK to let your children see you cry.

Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn’t be in it.

Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don’t worry; God never blinks.

Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

Whatever doesn’t kill you really does make you stronger.

It’s never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

When it comes to going after what you love in life, don’t take no for an answer.

Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don’t save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

Over prepare, then go with the flow.

Be eccentric now. Don’t wait for old age to wear purple.

The most important sex organ is the brain.

No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

Frame every so-called disaster with these words ‘In five years, will this matter?’

Always choose life.

Forgive everyone everything.

What other people think of you is none of your business.

Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

Believe in miracles.

God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn’t do.

Don’t audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

Growing old beats the alternative — dying young.

Your children get only one childhood.

All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.

Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

The best is yet to come.

No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

Yield.

Life isn’t tied with a bow, but it’s still a gift.

I am a sick bitch~

Well the title says it all. I hate being sick! It is only a head cold, but it effects all aspects of my day. I can't breathe so I am winded doing stupid shit. My head is spinning from the decongestent, and the coughing is making my throat raw! Forget this shit, I am just gonna burry my head in my pillow, until it goes away!

My mood

As of late, I have not been in a very good mood. I have been crabby and just down right nasty to most of the people that I have spoken to! I can blame the weather, the job situation, I can even blame Obama, but when it comes right down to it, I have only myself to blame... Now don't get me wrong, I am overjoyed not to be at My old job anymore. It was like hell on Earth everyday I was there, however, it did not have to be, and that is the point that I am trying too get across. I make my own happiness and I make my own sadness. It was my fault that worked sucked, and it was MY fault that I let it get to me so much. Just by changing the perseption of the situation that you are in, changes the course of that events particular outcome. There is some weird quantum physics nonesence that I barely understand, that says there is a particle that if you look at it, it changes the course of that particles existance,( for lack of a better term) and that is what is in play here. Just look at the situation, and envision different outcomes, pick the one you like best and the universe has a funny way of making the situation work in your favor. Life is a random collection of change and chance, every action as an equal and opposite reaction, You create your universe and all that inhabit it! It is like a giant game of The Sims, only there is no cheat codes.... Be kind to each other and mostly be kind to yourself. (I promise no more silly platitudes in this post)

I am sorry

Hi there everyone, I have not been in the creative mood for the last few days and I have not done anything with the blog or the newsletter either! I just wanted to say that I am sorry and will be back in a day or two and will have new crap that gets on my nerves! Till then....

Stephen

A New project

I am starting a new project, that should have some Star Trek fans excited! I am only going to give you a taste of what is to come, only that I am excited about what this could turn into~

Stayed tuned...

Trouble on the horizion?

I am not sure if I am facing trouble in the near future or not? I just had some distressing news, but it is also a blessing in dress up. There is a part of everyone's life that is not perfect, but we have to accept it, because that is what we do, we deal and move on... My issue, has been the cause of all the stress and aggravation in my life at the present, now that it is over, I feel free, but also I feel confused and concerned. What am I going to do, Where am I going to go? It is like the bad sub plot of a musical...

Old Friends

I have been thinking about old friends that I don't talk to or have contact with anymore. These are people that at one point in time meant a great deal to me. I don't have causal aqutaintences like most people, I prefer to make a friend for as long as time permits. There are 2 that stick out very clearly in my mind. I am not going to use there names, just in case they might read my humble little blog, the situations are a dead give away! The first was the longest friendship I have ever had. He was a very different person when I met him back in 8th grade. Very shy to most people, but had some friends that he knew from other places. We did not get along. I got along with most people, but he rubbed me the wrg way. But a mutual friend of ours had us together alot, and as time passed, we began to form a friendship that would span almost 9 years. He and I had very different intrests, but being the capitulant person I was, (and still kinda am) I gave in and took on some of the intrests he enjoyed. You know what, I started to like some of them too! My love of the stars, and the cosmos came from him, My intrest in Star Trek also came from him. He was a profound person that could get me to do almost anyting, but I liked it. He made me leave my comfort zone and that made me a better person. We were joined at the hip when we were in school, There was rarley a moment that we were not together. We laughed at the same things and I think that he was really one of the only people who knew the true me. I was at my weakest and strongest when we were together. There was no fronts for either of us. He knew all my darkest dreams and secrets, and I am quite confident I can say the same for him as well. Time we spent together always went to fast, and we were reluctiant for it to end. Time though made fools of us as it often does, we went our seperate ways after high school, We remained friends all that time, but never as close. I miss my friend, I still think back on our time together and smile, at that time in my life, I was happy. Now our friendship exists as 140 charecters on Myspace. Life goes on in many forms, and we choose where we live in the greater plane of existance. Most choose to move on, to expand there ideas, and seek out new memories to fill themselves up with. I choose to stay in a place where I am comfortable and happy, and that is no life at all. Life is not worth living, if you are not going to expand your understanding of the universe and all the wonders it has in store. We only grow if we have the courage to go out and try. I am not going to bore you with the story of my other friend, but he was a very special person, who acted as teacher, preacher, big brother, and confident. He taught me that there is more to life then just what we see with our eyes. Life and the wonders therin are everywhere. The smells that are carried on the summers wind, or the soft sound of a stream trickling thru a forest. Stop for a second everyday and just stand still, for one brief second you can feel the energy of the rest of the universe filling you up like drink. It is a remarkable sensation. So please take time to remember the people who matter to you now, and keep the memories of those friends past to stay alive within you. They were your friends for a reason..... Remeber that!

Walk

I just went for a walk today in a conservation park near my home. It is nice in its own way, a bit small, but full of trees and plenty of out of the way places to sit in quiet reflection. I brought my camera, as I usually do, and did not see anything worth taking notice of. I walked on a bit more reciting a favotite poem in my head over and over. Further and further I get into the dark woods, when i notice a ray of sunlight shining thru the gloom onto a single lonesome sapling. That is the picture you see above. I have not altered this photo in any way, I uploaded it from the camera just as i took it. Alone in a dark and lonesome place this little tree should thrive. Out of the darkness, there is always a ray of light, a glimmer of hope. I was very happy to have been at this spot at this time. The universe has a way of leading us to things we need when we are in need of them!

I am a whore

Not in the literal sence, I am an attention whore. I have a friend that has introduced me to a music website, where he is popular. Now in turn, he is asked alot to collaborate on projects with others, he says by doing this, it makes him a whore, as he does not usually turn down the requests he gets. I am an attention whore. I like to be the center of attention, no matter what I might say to the contrary. I am not proud of this fact, and it is not something that I share very often, but I find that it is very hard to stay on the side lines when there is a large group. I am a very shy person, that has the ability to talk to anyone. I am very insucure, and standoffish, but I have the knack of putting that to the side and diving into the thick of whatever situation I am in. I am very well spoken, and I know a little something about almost everything, as I hate looking or sounding stupid, but that is the end of it, once I am thru with the info that I have, I am at a loss, and that is when it all seems to start to fall apart. I think that is why I am not as social as some of the people I know. Small talk seems out of reach somehow. I have a good friend who lives in Orlando. I was living in California at the time and this friend of mine wanted to come to California for a visit. Now to give you some kind of clairty, I had only meet this person one time in the past, but we had had countless conversations on the phone, and were very close, as close as can be expected in the situation. Now getting back to the story, He arrived to Sacramento and we decided what we were going to do. It was settled that we would take a drive from Sacramento to Mt St. Helens in Washington. From Sacramento to Washington is a 13 hour drive, and another 13 hours back. I was in full painc mode. What the fuck am I gonna talk about with this person for 26 hours? It turns out we both never ran out of things to talk about, and it was one of the best times I have ever had. We got to the mountain, and there was a blizzard, so we had to turn around and go back home, it was a pointless trip, but I learned that you are only as intresting as you make yourself. It never hurts to push the limits of ones boundries, but it is hard sometimes, just making the leap can sometimes be to much..... Will it be for me?

Almost time for Hurricane season

Now I am not a fan of large devistating storms, but I do love a good, strong,  and loud thunderstorm. With the coming of Hurricane season, also means that it is also the start of the rainy season. Everyday round 3 or 4 the storms start, as the sea breeze collides with the hot air mass that is coming from the other side of the state, and BAM ready made thunderstorm. It is my favorite time of year. I know I am silly, but I love the rain, and I love the thunder, especially at night. 

Good Bye.....

Well as you might have heard Bea Arthur has died. She was famous for her work on stage with Angela Landsbury in Mame, and then on tv as Maude and then as Dorothy on the Golden Girls. She was a terrific actress and she will be missed. I have all the seasons of the Golden Girls on DVD, and it is on alomst all the time on one channel or another, so I can still get my fix, but a legand has gone. That now makes 2 from the show, as Estelle Getty Pre deceased her. Both were so funny, and now there are only 2 left. Please say a small prayer for Bea, lets hope she can find peace and comfort on her next journey!

Is there a happy middle ground?

I am sitting here tonight, and asking myself that title question. Is there a happy middle ground? A spot where you don't have all that you would like, but you are doing just fine, and are not really in need of anything at the moment. I would have to answer in the negitiave on that one at this point in time. I am not content and my mind is far from quiet. I try and sit in the dark, to quiet my mind, but I can't make the tumoult stop. My head is briming with nonsence and errant ideas, that have no substance, or value. I cannot seem to shake the clutter from the cobb webbed covered cornors of my over taxed mind. I would give up all I own,(which is not much) just to have peace and quiet. I am a very simple person wrapped up in a complicated man's life. I let stupid things get to me. You are the only one that creates your own outcomes. Your day is created and destroyed by you, and you alone. I have to remember that in the riggers of the day, the nonsence is just that, nonsence, ment to distract me from my higher goal, TO MAKE EACH DAY COUNT. I don't really make a difference in anyone's life as it is now. I have to live for me, and with my positive outlook, that will in turn helps others. 

April Newsletter finally finished

Well it is official, I have finally finished the April newsletter. It was long and involved, but it is finally complete. It was all about the NWO and FEMA and a few other surprises as well. I am amazed by the amout of information that I came across in my studying, and all this info is in plain sight. So if you are reading this and have no clue what newletter I am talking about, send me a comment with your email and I will send you a copy of the newsletter right away! Thanks to all those who helped keep me focused, it was needed, really...... If you want any info about the NWO and the shadow goverment and the like, you can visit http://www.illuminati-news.com/moriah.htm They are a great resource for information.

Hole in the wall places.

What ever happened to the old mom and pop style resturants? You know the kinda place with the over the hill wait staff that remembered your name and what you had to drink? That was service, It was not a chain, and the food was acctually made on site by people who knew it had to be good, if they wanted repeat buisness and a decent tip. The kinda place that had the best breakfast in town, and was only open till the end of the lunch rush. I miss those kinda places. I was talking to a friend of mine and he was expounding on this fact as well. He was with his daughter for a night out, and they were both starving, all the big chains were packed as it was a Friday night, so he hooked a U-turn and took a chance on a small family resturant, and he said it was amazing. That is what I mean, most of the time, you are going to have a great meal. We have gotton so used to in and out service, that we have forgotton what real food tasted like. Don't get me wrg, I love a cajin chicken sandwich from Chilli's, but I also love the friendly serivce and amazing food from a buisness that depends on the patranoge of its clientel. So my advice is go out and take a chance on a small resturant in your neighborhood. I assure you, it will be fast, cheap, and most likley the best meal you will have all day! 

Pea Soup Andersen

I have not lived in California for some time now, but I do remember when my friends and I would take a drive to L.A., We would stop in Santa Neila, about 2.5 hours outside Sacramento to a place called Pea Soup Andersen. I was against it the very first time. I assumed that they were over priced and the food would be terrible. I was right about one thing, they are insanely overpriced, however they have the most amazing Pea Soup I have ever had. I hate pea soup, it was never my favorite, but this soup was different. It's color was that of a mental hospital's walls, and it had the texture of very thin custard, but the taste was out of this world. The most amazing thing about this place is that they will bring you as much soup as you like, all for one kinda low price. The rest of the menu is where they got you. I just recenty found the recipe online and I am going to attempt to make this soup for myself. If it is half as good as I remember, I will be on cloud nine. The recipe is remarkably simple, as most good things are. I will post again as to the outcome of this adventure, and also post the recipe, with any revisions that I have made to get it exactly the way I remember it. Here's to fond memories of a time long ago when life was grand, and the possibilties were as far reaching as the toilet after the pea soup worked it's way down!  

Why can't the English teach there children.....

For some time now I have been on the look out for words that are spelled out very clearly, but always mispronounced. Some of you us these words alot and everytime that you pronounce them incorrectly, I wanna smach you on the head with something heavy. I am going to give you some of the examples that drive me batty, and I will also phaneticly spell them out for you, so you can spit them out correctly. 

The word(s):                               How YOU say it:                  How it should be said:

Iraq                                                  I-Rack                                       E-rock

Iran                                                  I-ran                                          E-Ron

Escape                                             X cape                                        S-cape

Wolf                                                 Woof                                           wool-f

Social Security                               Socil Security                           So-shal  sa cure it e

And so on and so on.....  I would love to hear some of yours. Drop a comment and let me know if these are few are universal......

Why does life has to be so hard?

I wonder why I am struggling right now with life. I am having a hard time with everything. I have no real social life to speak of, and I am not seeing anyone at the moment either. I am 30 and alone... It is hard to look at it in plain english. I have so much potential, and I am stalled in doing anything. I have so many ambitions and dreams, but I have done nothing to put them into action. Why am i rotting away, as life goes by? Why can't I get up and do what I know needs to be done. I am the cause of the suffering I am feeling, I am the soulution as well. I am my own worst enemy, and my greatest champion. I just need to find the motovation to get off my ass and do something that is worth wild. I am not sure what is is going to take, but I will get there, I am not sure how long that might take, but I am going to try to see it thru to the end. 

Where did common sense go?

I have put forth this question, What the hell are most people thinking? I mean really? I work for a very large company with stores EVERYWHERE, and no it is not Wal-Mart. I work in the credit dept. You have a problem with our credit card, you call me. For 10 hours a day 4 days a week, I listen the the dredges of socity call, and I am gonna ask you, WHAT THE FUCK is wrong with you America? When did you become so friggin stupid? I can understand if you don't understand something, but to not get simple addition and subtraction? If you don't understand credit, don't get it! Simple as that. I listened to a woman bitch for 20 solid minutes about the color of her fuckin credit card. REALLY? You could have done so many better things with your time. Like hung yourself from the rafters, or overdosed on meds. I am not a scientiest or scolar, however, I have learned, when you make a mistake, you accept the results. Now there are some valid reason to not make a credit card ptmt, but then there are not as well. Now if you miss a ptmt, you are going to be charged out the ass for fees and other charges. You accept that in not making the ptmt on time or at all. When you don't make the ptmt, dont call me in shock, when you see that there was a $35 late fee assesed to your bill. That is YOUR fault, not ours. It is not loan sharking, or highway robbery, all that shit was laid out in your terms and conditions, that 99.99999% of you did not read. Don't get mad or mack outrage that you were never informed of this shocking fact. It is all there black and white, clear as crystal. Take charge for yourselves for once. Don't rely on someone else to think for you. If you don't do it no one will. It is up to you. It is time for America to get off this cycle of revolving debt, and start to pay for shit with cash. If you can't afford it, DON'T GET IT..... It is that simple.

Really long time since last post!

I am working on 2 very big projects at the moment. I am working on a professional style puppet and I am also putting together the April newsletter on the New World Order, and the shadow goverment! It is going to be great I hope..... Keep reading over the next couple of days, to see a few previews of the projects!

-Stephen

Super Paper Mario

I just beat Super Paper Mario today, and it was insane hard. I would not have been able to do it w/o a walkthru online. There are so many in's and out's of this game that you would not be able to find out without help! I love a hard game like the next guy, but I mean come one, this is just silly. It did keep my attention for 18. 25 hours accourding to the in game timer. I did not do that all in one sitting however. If you have a wii and are looking for a game that is hard to put down and stop, I think anyone who has played it can aggee, this is your game.

another week done.

Well it is another week down in the record books for suckage! We have a new President that is soft on national defence, a new congress that is a Democrat majority, and the people I deal with at work on a daily basis are a complete nightmare. The sad thing is that I really hate to complain. I know that all should turn out well, but I can't help but think that something is gonna fall of that high shelf no one can see and take us all by surprise. When the shit hits the fan, I wanna be under the bed hiding.

2009

I am trying to be more positive for 2009. I find that this is harder then it sounds. Not a positive outlook on life, just in general. Like being more patient with old people that drive 20 mph slower then the posted limit, or people that drop 40 items in the 10 item or less line at the sweetbay. Old people that still cart out the check book and hold up a long line, because they can't figure out what a debit card is. Stuff like that. Everyone has things that aggraviate them and these are a few of mine. I am going to try to be more patient and understanding.

Tim Burton Alice

I am just reading that Tim Burton is coming out with his own twisted take on Alice in Wonderland and thru the looking glass. Surprise surprise, Johnny Depp is in this one again too as the Mad Hatter! All this is looking to happen in 2010, I am stoked! No website just yet, but I am sure it is soon to follow, I will keep you updated as I find out more!

Job....

I know that I should be thankful that I have employment, but the the thought of all those aggravating people everyday just drives me insane. I am starting to hear the people that I talk to on the phone in my daily life now, and it is making me a bit anxious. I know that I am there to help sole problems and that the majority of people are not even all that bad, but there is that percentage that I just wish we had some sort of torture device for, and bam, no more Mrs. Jewenbergstein and her God damn Finance charges and delivery fees!